Final note, the past should be in the past.

I see You are back, and I hope it means You are over it, as terrible as that sounds. I am still very sorry, even if You don't believe me, but I am. I didn't have a choice, I hope You can see that now. By no means I am trying to say that i was not at fault. I was. A coward. But don't get your hopes up, not because I was afraid of being with you, but afraid of You leaving Her. And if You dont know why than You are a bigger idiot than I thought. I hope you have forgotten me. I guess it was great while it lasted.  I learned a lot. Even if all of it now breaks my heart. And I realize I sound like a total bitch, but, hey, I was,  and there is no point in denying it. I am so very sorry.
I wish you well. You know I do. That's what got us in this mess in the first place.


I shouldn't have thought of  looking you up. I never change do I.