And then I woke up ... feeling excited.
And happy.
I understand that there are people of few words, and you are one of them, but the conversation and games we had yesterday made me happy.
Getting to know bits and pieces of past I did not have the chance to participate in.
Discussing future dreams and thoughts.
I hope I get my hairstyle right tonight.
We all know how lame I am at these things.
Sunday, February 14, 2016
Sunday, February 7, 2016
And then I woke up..
And then I woke up.. feeling restless.
This was one of the longest nights of my life. I have not felt so emotionally bare, so confused as I did tonight.
But I still wouldn't give this up for the world. Having you next me is a bliss.
I thought that I would be furious that I have to go on a business trip the first thing after you come back.
But it works out just fine. I need the time to calm my nerves.
You are funny that way. You stay silent and wait for the storm to pass.
And I like you so much more for it. I resent saying words on an anger spike that I'd regret later.
Glad you are home.
Does this feel like home to you?
This was one of the longest nights of my life. I have not felt so emotionally bare, so confused as I did tonight.
But I still wouldn't give this up for the world. Having you next me is a bliss.
I thought that I would be furious that I have to go on a business trip the first thing after you come back.
But it works out just fine. I need the time to calm my nerves.
You are funny that way. You stay silent and wait for the storm to pass.
And I like you so much more for it. I resent saying words on an anger spike that I'd regret later.
Glad you are home.
Does this feel like home to you?
And then I woke up...
And then I woke up.. feeling like my eyes are too heavy and there is no way in hell I will be able to get out of the bed soon. Because I spent most of the night turning and tossing out of the excitement of seeing you today. Did I do everything? Did I prepare everything? Is the house clean enough? Will he like the food? And most of all - will he really come? After all I have been waiting not-really-that-patiently the whole week for him to come.
But I had to wash my hair and do my make up, so I found the motivation to leave the warmth of my bed.
I do not really like myself when I get nervous. My body starts acting up. Like it's telling me - honey, what the hell do you think you are doing. Well more like my brain is telling my heart - calm the fuck down. Not that it listens. It never listens. Stubborn, that one.
But it's alright. After months of waking up alone, finally, my heart has something to look forward, feeling some other heart beneath my palms. Ain't that the most beautiful thing?
Lets's see, shall we?
But I had to wash my hair and do my make up, so I found the motivation to leave the warmth of my bed.
I do not really like myself when I get nervous. My body starts acting up. Like it's telling me - honey, what the hell do you think you are doing. Well more like my brain is telling my heart - calm the fuck down. Not that it listens. It never listens. Stubborn, that one.
But it's alright. After months of waking up alone, finally, my heart has something to look forward, feeling some other heart beneath my palms. Ain't that the most beautiful thing?
Lets's see, shall we?
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